[NON BLOG] Thoughts on a ring pawned
Jan. 4th, 2016 07:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rfmcdonaldEarly last month, I pawned the ring that my then-partner gave me six years ago (or is it seven), for $C 52. I took it to one of the strip of pawnshops on Church Street by Queen that G. had introduced me to, actually. It seemed fitting.
I'm not quite sure why we exchanged rings in the first place. We weren't engaged, we weren't married, I was reluctant to make the expenditure in the first place. I was with G. for four years, but for the last two of those years I think on reflection that I may have been in the Relationship more because I liked the idea of a relationship. Perhaps, as a friend of mine suggested when I talked about it recently, we exchanged rings to try to fix something that was broken?
The money was useful, but as important for me was the act of divesting myself of something useful. I broke up with G. five years ago, have not been in contact with him for three, and had no interest at all in personally regifting this. Was it really just simple reluctance to make a definitive break from the past? The relief I felt after selling it honestly makes me think the home economics of Marie Kondo are entirely correct.
I'm not quite sure why we exchanged rings in the first place. We weren't engaged, we weren't married, I was reluctant to make the expenditure in the first place. I was with G. for four years, but for the last two of those years I think on reflection that I may have been in the Relationship more because I liked the idea of a relationship. Perhaps, as a friend of mine suggested when I talked about it recently, we exchanged rings to try to fix something that was broken?
The money was useful, but as important for me was the act of divesting myself of something useful. I broke up with G. five years ago, have not been in contact with him for three, and had no interest at all in personally regifting this. Was it really just simple reluctance to make a definitive break from the past? The relief I felt after selling it honestly makes me think the home economics of Marie Kondo are entirely correct.
